Your Life

Find one day in your life, to really be yourself;

Do away with expectations, that of others and that of yourself;

Play a chord and sing a note that you think sounds correct, and feel it for yourself;

Dress as you would want to see yourself, not how others would want;

Speak words of kindness and words of sense, and maybe disagree agreeably;

Be the individual that is true to the self, not as how people think or want you to be;

Live the life you want to and be the person you truly are, even if only for a day;

A day in your life. 

We Run

We run, and we run. We run all the way across the parade square, to the spot where our younger selves used to sit. 

I’m in brown again, no longer the military green that I was clad in a moment ago. I feel like I’m in all white back in my junior college again, a proud young man ready to take on the world at breakneck speed. 

I look around, and I notice this isn’t the elevated parade square of my recent two soaring years. This is the parade square of my childhood years, an old but happy place of endless running and jumping. A place where I felt (and still feel) truly free.

We reach our spot, and we giggle like we used to all those years ago. Silly we seem, but happy we are. 

“Here?” I ask with a smile spread across my face.

“Yeah, here” you reply with a sincere laughter.

 I never felt free like this in a long time.

The next thing I knew, 8:40am. Blue stained sheets, old yellow blanket. I groaned, as all sense of happiness and freedom vanished into thin air in an instant. 

A Haze of Blur 

I took another puff and exhaled. The smoke makes no difference to anything, it’s all a hazy blur. So what if I cough with each inhalation? It’s as though I am silently strangled and choking in this mist of restraint and confusion anyway. 

I reach for the cup beside my bed, gave it a light swirl and downed whatever remained of it from the night before. It didn’t go down well, and caused a jerk as it slid uncomfortably through a dry and coarse throat from a puff too much of Marlboro. ‘Damn it’ I thought, as I stare into the shroud of uncertainty gathering in front of me, a sinister shade of the unknown. 

Freedom awaits outside of these gates. 

A Dedication (Three Minutes’ Work)

Here’s a post I dedicate to all who are
Left out or misunderstood in a complicated world
Where simplicity becomes the bane
In the workings of complexities and anxiety;

Don’t feel so bad if whatever you do and all that you do
Seems wrong or insufficient in the eyes of others
Merely because it does not align with the way they work
Or the way they think things should work;

Many a misplaced grievance is caused
By the misjudged expectations of others;

Run away and be free.

Important In Life / Existentialism

(Greetings ladies and gentlemen, it’s a public holiday today so I hope everyone can have a hazy good time.. Ops, I mean crazy good time. For those living in Singapore and other parts of Southeast Asia, do stay in doors more to avoid the haze; it is prudent to take care of your health. Here’s a short post for the morning in between the rush.)

Ask any man what he thinks is important in life:
Some will say wealth and others will say health,
While some will say happiness and others may say
Family or friends or someone he loves everyday;

Ask any guru what he thinks is important in life:
Some will say compassion and others will say love,
While some will say nirvana and others may say
There is nothing so very important in life except today;

Ask me what I think is important in life:
I say it is freedom in life within and without any strife;

Think’st thou otherwise?

Time and Conditioning

cool, serene night

“Today is the tomorrow which you worried about yesterday”.

How apt is the above saying in describing the humanly, constant worry about what is to take place in time to come. It is in us to always worry about the future, so much so that we miss completely what is happening right at the present moment. It is correct to say that while we were living in yesterday, we worried about the next day, which is today;  and when we are living in today, we worry about what is to happen tomorrow and when we finally arrive at the doorsteps of tomorrow, we start worrying about the day after and everything repeats itself all over again. It is a never-ending cycle of forever worrying about the uncertainty that lies ahead of us in the progression of time, and it is in most beings to be trapped in that wearisome cycle.

In a largely obvious yet oblivious manner, worry can be considered to be a detraction from truly experiencing life to its fullest. In fact, the weight of worry is one of the main obstacles that stand in the way of wholesome and carefree living, which is fundamentally how life should be lived to begin with. We were born with a free and unchained mind that is capable of  generating free-flowing creative thoughts and wonderful imaginations,  but we lose the innocence that comes with it when we mature and start getting oppressed by conditioning that is imposed upon us by everyone and everything. Our minds become imprisoned.

The moment we lose our innocence and ability to wonder, we lose something very precious. It prevents our mind from churning out wonders that can surprise and change the world and instead, our minds start getting corrupted by the less-than-ideal ideas that the world has since established that we all must conform to. Conformity restricts creativity, innovation and freedom, and in its place breeds worry, regiment and mental oppression. It is akin to getting stuck in an endless labyrinth that entails no exit, only an entrance. Suppression from conformity is the trap itself.

Enlightenment of the Soul and Being hails the breaking of attachment and desolution of worries as the first step to reaching liberation. In some sense, the removal of worry and escape from the suppression due to needless conformity is a liberation of its own in this stress and worry laden world where we are reduced to mere stress balls and worry mongers that are ruled by the uncertainties and seemingly unpredictabilities of the future. The human mind is capable of so much more than we can comprehend and it is such trivialities and emotions like anger and jealousy that render us incapable of carrying out and executing what we were born with.

A reflection of the truth is that our world has digress to such a point that such ideals like the one above are considered to be radical and distorted; everyone is too caught up with everything else to the point that they lose their awareness and consciousness.  If you open up your eyes and really see, you might catch some glimpse of the truth of how much the human mind can achieve in actuality.

The question is, are you still capable of seeing the more important things in life? Or have you been so oppressed and conditioned that you have lost your inner self, to the extend that you are incapable of doing something simple as that?  The answer lies in the moment when you are finally given space and time to try to do that, when your mind is not encaged by any unnecessary trouble or worry.

(On a lighter note to end, we even worry about worrying and not worrying..)