It was a quiet ride barred
from the constant odd hum the Japanese engine made.
I decided to break the ice and asked him if
the car was nice to drive and he told me it depended on
how I defined nice. Back to silence it was,
the night was still young and our hearts were still hungry.
An R8 whizzed by. We caught up and landed beside. A young boy in a cap.
My traveling companion might have thought, nice car.
I was thinking, where did he get the money from?
We were both young men trying to survive in a world inside our Grab car
and a world outside. Maybe we wished we were in the R8, or maybe not.
Must have been his parent’s car or money. That is far from satisfying for us.
Soon the journey came to an end. I took the lift up,
and he took another trip out.
The night was still young and our hearts were still hungry.
the night after our first fight you ran
away. from me and from your abandoned necklace
i saw our love fade away into the break of day,
mirroring the shattered fragments of my
life (and heart) as i knew it. you’re no good. for me.
is all that is left of our love – an echo. or maybe
not so much an echo: at least an echo is a reciprocation;
my calls for your love bears no return.
False happiness is standing at the top of the building amongst the clouds in your coffee
til your heart floats sweet like the sugar remnants at the bottom of the building.
Emotional emptiness is a space
that physical intimacy, no matter how frequent or close, simply cannot feel.
I can no longer tel the difference between the ground that I step on and the contracts that I sign off on: both are solid but they remain void of meaning and virtue. The rich gets richer and the poor, poorer.
I have folded shapes of crescent and full only to arrive at a poor imitation of you:
May we always grow up & never grow old;
Come let me write for you
As I watch a Pro Bono lecture
Take place right up front
While I sit right behind;
Many heads and ponytails
Many faces and spectacles
Many sleeping and many typing
All in the law fac auditorium;
Yet I don’t see you
Not your head nor ponytail
Not you sleeping nor typing
Where in the lac fac auditorium are you?
I wrote searching for you.
It feels like
I met you in a dream
Learnt a couple of lessons
Yet woke up feeling needy
I wish life would pause
In that moment in time
So that we can stay that way
Just a little bit longer;
I would smile at that smile
Everyday of my life
If my smile would make your smile
Just a little bit brighter;
For just a little bit:
I’d do so much more.